Hypocrite

The character of some people really amazes me. I thought I was the only person feeling that way but apparently I wasn't. Seriously, I kept thinking the problem was me and that I was too picky or something! Now, I know it's not me because her high school friend had the same problem with her. Thanks God!

When she needs me, she ask me for help. When she doesn't, she don't really bother. There was one lecture where she totally snapped at me twice! Inside, I stunned for while because my question was really harmless. Then i said what I thought she was doing and she snapped at me again.How I know she snapped? She opened her eyes WIDE and gave me the NO I DIDN'T. Lucky, I was able to control my emotions at that point of time if not I would totally scream at her.

Different opinions can totally kill me at times! Her thinking is totally different from mine! No one is right or wrong and I am totally aware that people are free to give their opinion and each individual have their own option. But sometimes... SOMETIMES, her pov is really.. how should I put it, really juvenile and immatured really! Maybe because I am older, my thinking is really different and when i think about what she says, she sorts of forgets the BIG PICTURE. I am gulity of such thinking when I was younger and now being older and wiser, my way of thinking eventually changes as well.

I have different opinion with many different people but I am still able to accept them and love them as my friend. If everyone is just going to agree with each other, that will be just FAKE. When I give my side of view, she will be like erm no...(reason). I feel so xin ku because I feel as if my opinion is not being accepted. It feels as if I am not able to voice out my own thinking. So now, I just agree with everything. No point saying any thing. Just wasting more saliva.

To me, it's a way of maintain a friendship with her. I don't want ugly things to happen. So all I can do is to just tahan. Practice what I preach to others and also what God has taught me. It's always that suddenly strike of fury in us that always cause friendship to break. So the only thing to do is to keep calm and listen and agree. One ear in and the other ear out. Everyone is happy cause 90% of the time, I cannot rememeber what she just said. Wait I think I don't even remember what she says. oh well good. My brain has limited MB, see not even GB. So small. I cannot put in nonsense or irrelevant informations in my head.

Go find someone else who will listening to your endless blabbering. I cannot stand it already.

If anyone read my facebook, I felt freaking ass pissed today. 4 contributing factors (actually more but minor).

1. My grandma was suppose to move out of my house to my aunt's house and now she is not. This was the thing which got me really pissed.

2. My school uni portal wasn't working. I dunno why but my internet is freaking damn slow which made me think I have over used my internet quota. But the problem is that I can't check because some genius forget his internet password to check the availability. Totally fuming already.

3 and 4 are too personal to say on my blog. How nice I can't even say it on my blog! That is why I hate to tell other people able my blog. Maybe I should go set up a new blog and only tell SOME of my friends and make them sworn to secrecy. The 3rd one is one of the major major contribution to my pissness level. I think i totally gave karmen the bad mood because I was so angry even tho it has nothing to do with her.

5. Finally. the MYSTERY OF THE MISSING MINCE PORK is SOLVED! Some one in the house took my mince meat twice! Not that I am a very kiam person but it' the stealing and not telling me part which just get me so pissed. If you want it, TELL ME! I won't say no for just a simple thing like mince pork! BTW, there are only 3 people in the freaking house which includes me. Obviously, I can't steal my own meat then I went over to ask the couple and they say they didn't and i totally trust them lah. The today, when I came home, I saw the banana skin inside the rubish bin which means they ate one. No 1. His wife never seldom buy fruits and the only fruits that she bought were STRAWBERRIES / ORANGES. No 2. Her husband NEVER buys fruits! SO what made them think that each other bought the banana when I have been the only person in the house buying FRUITS! I didn't know which one took my banana but it doesn't matter because the both of them are married! Arg! I know I sound like some KAIM AUNTY but I cannot stand the 'taking and not telling me part". If i asked, just say SORRY I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS YOURS and not NO WE DIDN'T TAKE! That is totally insane and that is lying! The only suspects are the both of them and lying thru my very own eyes is SUCH A 'MATURE' THING TO DO, giving the fact that the both of them are like 29 YEARS OLD lying to a 20 YEAR OLD GIRL! They are SUCH A ' WONDERFUL' ROLE MODEL for their future child! It's totally LUDICROUS.

OK, when a new blog has been set up, I will inform some people. I totally cannot continue blogging in the blog anymore. The name is also wrong already. My painist dreams are already coming true already. Also, I cannot stand the fact that too many people knows about my blog as well.

Okay, I have to go and sleep now. I feel as if I sin a lot in this message for crtitizing so many people but this was the event that happened and I have to right to feel that way. As for the hypocrite person, I will bare with IT until we go our separate ways. Until then, I will take the BITE THE BULLET and carrying on entertaining her.

This is why my face is a mask. I'm not always showing my true feelings and with my PRing skills, I can hide how i feel from anyone. But when I get REAL pissed, it will be shown ALL OVER MY FACE and it will be as clear as day. If you don't get it, you must be blind.

I can't believe I typed an entire message filled with hatred. Thanks to that person.

11:29 PM