Mummy left and the tears are here.

She left this afternoon while I was at orientation and when I came home, she wasn't here anymore. I can't stop crying until now. How I wish december was here and I can go home. I want to go home so badly.

Everyday, for the past 1 week, mummy was always in my room whenever I got home. In thr evening, while I am searching the internet for my subjects stuffs, she will be beside me asking what will I like to have for dinner and where we should go. Now, I am all by myself. My heart is screaming to go home but I know I can't. I really want to go home. Nobody can really understand how badlly I want to go home. Nobody. Many people here are fortunate to have their siblings with them and some are able to so back after every semester. But not me. I want to go home. I really want to go home. Tell me how I can go home.

Many people tell me that this homesickness will last only for a few days. How can I pass these few days and I keep thinking about my mom when she's here. Sometimes I feel crazy because I talk to the air. Please let 10 months pass really quickly so I can go home.

Eating dinner alone is really painful. My mom cooked the vegetables and left it on the table and I had to warm it up. Then, I had to bake my salmon and fish abd steam the corns. I hate eating dinner alone. Even when i was back in Singapore, I never ate dinner alone. I waited for my daddy to eat with me.

My cousin never thought about home because she get to fly back to singapore like eveyr 3 months. I cannot ask for that.

Life here is really difficult and I won't want to repeat it again. Once I graduate, I will return home even if there are no animal hopsitals in singapore. Clinics are good enough for me.

How am I going to pass another 10 months?