I worked still 4AM just to do my LITERAURE essay! Like what the hell man! I didn't see such leven of committment when I was in jc! I only had like 5h of sleep today! Woke up early just to finish up my introduction paragraph!

How did I end up like this? I didn't do my lit essay at the eleventh hour! Honestly, i already wrote all the body para leaving just the intro and the conclusion. Then when i let my teacher see it on thur (this week), the criticize my essay like it is some piece of shit. When i got to lit lesson the next day, I realised that I wasn't the only victim. 4 of us who went to see her all had to redo our essay. She's an excellent teacher but her standards are damn high can.

Crap. When I was in Singapore, I kept hoping for an education system that will allow us to count all my tests and exams as part of our final grades. Taking into consideration only the final exam like O Levels or A Level was quite nonsensical because it would mean that our entire life depended on those final moments!

Now, when I finally got the education system I wished for, it made me realise that it wasn't was as perfect as I thought it was. You need consistency throughout the the way and it is seriously energy draining. Every single assignment, test and exam has to be the best because it is part of the final grade! The pressure is really on man! That's why I am always so stress! I think I work harder here then back home. I use to think that foundation studies was easy but not any more. Maybe when I am able to get into my choice of major, then I will think it is easy. But for now, it is a bit like hell. Well, I rather suffer for 1 year and enter my dream course and be happy for the rest of my life.

Oh yes, English exam are like... I also don't know. First time writing such as essay. Not sure if my points were coherent. I just need 16/20 and i will be quite happy already! omg give me a 16 or higher!

Barely alive.

7:49 AM