Signs and Prayers
Awww, my feets hurts like mad! I have been walking non-stop with Huiting from 11am. She accompained to the this animal clinic for an interview but even before I was interviewed by them, I was rejected. The reason was because they wanted full time workers. They told me I will be trained for 6 months! But I thought they will just be giving me a receptionist job. Why does that need 6 months of training? Weird Huh? I know.
Anyway, I am not having any lucks recently. First the zoo and now, the vet clinic. All I wish is that The Animal Clinic will call me back. They are my only hope now. At the mean time, I'll be working at my mum's hospital I guess.
I'm a person who is very sensitive to 'SIGNS'. Ask Kim Yein about it if you don't believe. For example last year, when I was just selecting my JC, I chose JJC but when I saw a board full of the word-CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE, I seriously changed my option to PJC. How silly was that huh? Yup, I am ultra sensitive to such stuffs. Now, all the clinics doesn't seems to want to hire me, so that is making me think if I was made to be a vet.
A levels results are going to be out pretty soon and it's scaring me. My parents want me to plan my next step so I can immediately implement them as soon as I get my results. Honestly, I don't really know where to start from. If I really don't do well for my Aleves, my opinions are
1. repeat another year at school
2. do a foundation programme at an aust uni
3. go to poly to do a course related to vet at TP
Honestly, the 3rd opinion didn't really cross my mind! NOT ONCE! It was my parents who suggested it. Going to poly after jc isn't a wise choice at all. I have no idea what to do. Veterinary is something that I wanted to do since young but do I have that capability to do so. I'll have to leave that answer to the Lord.
It's really unfair. Why are other people able to do vet instead of me when I wanted it first. I don't understand. My horrible cousin who is a year younger than me is currently doing her A Levels at London, will be pursuing her vet course after that. I guess she wanted to be a vet just because I wanted it first. My dear, you can have all the money in the world, but there are somethings I have that you can never have- God and family. Moms are the greatest person in the world because they carried us around for 9 months and gave birth to us. They are the ones we should trust and turn to. Some moms don't know how to express their love to their children because they didn't receive such tender loving care from their own mothers. But this doesn't mean that they don't love you. Calling you or buying the simplest things for you is also love. Never underestimate such small gestures for they may mean a lot to your mom. The rest are just outsiders. Choose wisely and don't regret your decisions before they are too late.
It's getting late. I need to pray tonight for peace in my heart. The road may not be smooth but I'll have to continue in order to succeed. This is my life, the amount of success will depend on how hard I work.
I'm sleepy.
Feeling lifeless.
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