HO HO HO Merry Christmas! When for church today and gave out christmas candies! Saving the rest of the candies for the little kids at my BBQ on saturday. It great to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, Prince of Peace. Didn't really go out for Christmas. Meeting the gals on friday and a bbq on sat if there is still one.

Anyway I just got back from church camp as well and it's amazing how reluctant I was to attend this camp. The reason? It's because I didn't really know anyone there. For the past 3 years, I came and went. I remember going for the very first church camp and initially, I had full of passion within me. But, as time passed, my spiritual strength just became weaker and I didn't really go for church anymore. So it continued for like the next 2 years during the course of my JC life. I kept giving excuses like "busy", "too tired", "too much homework", etc. I'm not proud of it and I had no idea how far I was drifting away from God. I'm a really anti-social and shy person so usually, I'll start advoiding people. Maybe that's why I don't really communicate well with new people! Guilty as charged! haha! I'm really sorry if I come across as a very stuck up or unfriendly person! Lol!

Thanks to my sister for forcing me to attend church camp. I was complaining to all of my friends how I dread to go for such stuffs. Making friends all over again like some orientation programme at school. The starting part is always the most difficult. Honestly, at that period, I had no faith in myself or the Lord. Anyway, I'm glad that I stayed for the entire duration of the camp and I felt different after the camp. I felt as if I'm back with the Lord again after such a long time. I remember on the third and final night service, I was kneeling down, crying and apologising to the Lord and he forgave me. It's really amazing the serenity and calmness I'm feeling after that. I didn't understand what people were talking about when they said they feel calm after speaking to the Lord. Now I do.

During the camp, we had to write our committments for 2008. I told mysef that I had to start prioritzing my time to the Lord instead of lazing around doing nothing. So, I have decided to go for youth service on sat and church on sunday as well. In order for me to start saving my friends, I have to be spiritually strong so that I'll be able to share the words of the Lord with them. I want to see my friends being saved. Feeling secured about myself and my family being saved is selfish. There are still lots of people out there who have not accepted Christ as their saviour. But for now, I have to take one step at a time. Learn to be committed first or else people will start questioning my lack of knowledge and understanding for my own religion! Lol

It had been a great 4 days and 3 nights camp and I have really met some wonderful people there. Thanks you all! Praise the Lord!

I wonder why some people can be all hyped up and excited about something but after awhile, their energy dies down and everything comes to a halt. This always seems to happen. How can I break this vicious cycle. Getting a bit tired and sick of it.

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