This week was the most tortuous for me because I had so many things to deal with. 1) We got back our report card(flunked 2 subjects, econs and GP!) 2) My form teacher had to call my mum. 3) I had a family meeting because of my horrendous results. 4) I had a piano class performance and I screwed it up. I sounded like crap. 5) Forced to quit what I love the most-PIANO.

Piano lessons is the only thing I look forward to every week and now I have been asked to stop going for lessons by April. Piano is like a form of relaxation to me because I really enioy it. Stopping so early would mean that I'll not be able to go for my grade 8 exams next year and also all the techniques that I have accquired will become rusty. I'm not looking forward to my last piano lesson. Maybe that was why I couldn't really concentrate during my piano performance. I was so preoccupied about the fact that i had to stop piano that I didn't really have the heart to play anymore.

Also, everyone around me are leaving to become a Veterinarian but me. It's a dream that I had since young and it disheartening to know that I'm not the one leaving! My cousin whom I hate the most is leaving for London to take her basic course then to a vet. My friend Eunice will also be leaving but to Murdoc University in Perth. She will be going there alone and lodging with another family. Happy for her!Good luck babe! Murdoc University is a private University and it will cost my family a bomb to send me there so I have to aim for a government University instead. My tutor recommened me Melbourne University. She said it's one of the best University. Well, since it's such a good uni, it's not easy to get in either. The minimum grades to get into the Vet course there are like 2As, 2Bs and for GP, an A grade! With my grades now, I'll never get a chance to get into there! And also, I can I ever get an A for GP!

I feel as if I'm getting further away from my dream while some are getting closer. The road for me for the next 8 months will be hard and a bumpy one for me. Roads are never smooth for me anyway. I hope that if I work hard now, I will get rewarded by the end of the day. But like I said, my life has never been smooth. Jesus, pls walk this road with me.
I know my teachers are concern about my results and i'm really grateful to them for giving me remedials. Thanks.


The sun will never shine my way. All there is, are dark clouds and thunders over my head. No rainbows for me.

9:31 PM